lmbt post daaaa.... but its never to late ryte? whtever lah.

date: 26/07/2009

venue: TARBUSH restaurant, Batu Feringghi

reason: celebrate bday syg, 24th!

wishes: together2 forever n love u so much n need u always!

wE belong toGether....

as i mentioned in previous blog tht i kalut2 blk from bandar sunway to my hometown coz faiz involved in accident... i felt so guilty bcoz ths happen to him as he so tension im not with him nymore.... he always gone crazy wit his sbike when we fight...here is the strory: on the way to konvoi bikers to perlis, got 1 stupid car suddenly slow down at Sg Puyu highway n faiz hit it.. ya lah dh tgh laju2 bwk sbike dia... xkn bw 60 jea kt highway.... then he jatoh guling2... his sbike's tank smp pcah... n thnk god he jz calar2 coz he wear full suit (pading jacket,glove,boot) n xpth anythng! i guess so bcoz he dnt even went to clinic or hosp... kalaw ada pth2 or retak all tht idk... dh la he accident 1day b4 his birthday! going 24years old!!

as i go back from kl, i trus p jmpa him n mntak maaf n promise will never leave him again n wont hurt him anymore! actly aku yg ntah pa2 p mntak break n xcntct dia dh 4 a few weeks..... im the bad one....i ignore him 4 jz stupid thought.... but he never gv up calling n messaging me! omg im so bad! but eventho we break 4 while, my loyalty never chnges..... i stil the gud gurl.... loyal oke! coz i mmg xdak niat lgsg nk cr sum1 to replace him cuma need tym n space to be alone 4 while... myb coz mid sem exam jz around the corner tht tym! i cnt think properly n i terlmpaw ikot prasaan!


to my dearest sygg.... if u read this... i jz want to knw tht i really love u n need u in my life... i know i always hurt u n degil gilak ckp u tp i syg u sgt2... cuma i cnt cntrol myself n emotion.. im so useless n such a troublemaker..... we love each other so much n i hope we will be together 4ever as wht we wish... syg im so sorry 4 all the sin hv done to u.... u sacrifice n treat me so damn good. i should i understand u dear...... i will never 4get everythng we gone thru... since the 1st i saw u n u saw me n we became lover, u cheer my life darl.. u meant so much to me..


~i'm GoNna be With U~

oMg2!! meGa saLes driVe mE cRazy~

gosh. money gettin low.. this is all ur fault mega sale (bkn megan fox)!!! i know its a once in a blue moon(yeah ryte) opportunity n all the chicks waiting 4 this most wanted moment...... mmg lah best dpt all new stuffs tp hbs duet tuh yg tension... bla wallet dh tggal satu hengget br reti nk agkt kaki berambus pulang kerumah en.

hr ahd, pg ke sunway pyrmd(where else) dgn nenek coz nk bli brg dapur. masok jusco n giant sja. nenek sdh x hbat bershopg mcm dlu kala.. br sket jln dh pnat... kalaw dlu, smp 3jam cr kasot sja xpnat. tp skg, since undergo kimotherapy smp 6X, dia sdh xlarat n sng saket... mmg kurang menarik pegi bli groceries.. at least aku dpt bedsheet br 4 my matric's bed n btol air bros yg sgt cntk...

esk tuh p teman my grandma p hosp kt putrajaya.... she's doing CT scan... damn cold tht hosp! aircond kuat xbley blaa... aku xtahan so dok luaq 4 3hours waiting 4 my grandma. smp tdoq2 kot. cucu mithali lah almaklum. ni gmbq sengal tym menunggu~


so tht evening, i went to SP back coz xtahan tgk poster "SALE" n i love to shop aloneeeeeeeeee......... xdak org kcaw n i cn move anywhere peacefully. 1stly i buy u-know-gurls-thing kt La Senza, XIXILI n Forever21... nmpk cumel n sweet sket jea aku rembat! esp yg flower2 n lace2. hahha xsnonoh. xpyh la aku tnjuk gmbq oke. maloooooo.

then i terstop jap kt dpn PROMOD... damn it dress dia suma unique2. hrga bley la tahan.. nma pown dress.. got 1. ckup lahhhh. next, buy skinny jeans n 2 more piece of dress (aku ney nk p prom ka?) at ASIAN AVENUE.. owh yea... i never go out without buying earings (wajib bli).. so since aku xmmpu nk bli blouse kt Forever21 (sale dia ttap mahai) so i bought 3pairs earing.. ckup lah. 1pair pown dh rm11. n meet my bff tym kt soksek.. satu klas ngn dia. minah suma A spm. not doing proff fast track accountancy kt uitm shah alam. dgki rmbt dia pnjg n lebat.



this tym aku xmmpu nk shop kt MNG since i spent to other things already.... n my cuzie told me tht last month kt MNG sunway pyrmd wat stock clearance smp i basic shirt=rm5.. farkov aite......

so the next day.......... went to pyrmd wit 1 mission... only 1.... searching for dark blue handbag to match wit my heel tht i bought at JUsco Perda last tym.... mission failed duhhhh.... end up buying black handbag at BONITA(bkn bonia.... sni murah sja..below rm100) and scarf(patern yg sgt sweet)! a pair of heel (gold digga) n dress again.... aiyoo... n bnda wjb bli, earing! boxer n top...... n wht else..... i dnt rmmber.



next day(bpa kali next day da) i bgn koi 530pm.... coz last nite tuh on9 tgk MJ kt utube.... mish him badly(mcm pompuan hlg laki)... so i jz bgn n p trim rmbt kt ACUTABOVE.. bodoh punya salon.. aku kta trim dia p ptong pendek.. ngok. dh la mahai. fuck2! since masa xckup... jz "cut" ja lah... dpa close at 7pm... blow pown xsmpt da..... but today i off my hp coz its going crazy stupid gadjet ever... kol 9pm on blk tgk2 my friends at matric...of coz gurls... ajak me p sunway pyrmd(again3x)... i mcm ler.... then cpt2 p trus coz dpa msg 9pg, 9pm br i taw..... in only 2min i smp n smpt chit chat ngn dpa sat.. ya la sp pown dh nk tutop n diorg pown nk blah... lgpown tggai bpa kerat jea... len dh blk...


then gwent 4 dinner with sophie's family........ her family r so cool n down to earth even rich family... we ate at SHOGUN... yummy!! japanese foods but nasi briyani pown ada? buffet kn. ska ht dpa lah jnji aku kenyang~ firstly i ate miso soup then raw oyster... damn! sdap gilak. unagi(belut). duck. abalone. scallop. n all kind of sushi. and moreover. n end wit cakes n ice cream. i ate like tomoro is the end of the world..


hurmmm... sabtu i blk... coz got a bad news..... my exbf accident. with his superbike tuh. i was so shock to hear tht n mmg kelam kabot blk penang.. naek bus kt puduraya.. sorg2 plak tuh. besalah cekang sgt. b4 tht kn... had my last shopg kt sunway pyrmd(last 1) ye la... abg aku xdak nk bw aku sna sni.. abg fifi sebok keja... abg jan continue stdy kt kulim... so aku x brani nk rayaw jaoh2 even ngn member... pecaya my big bros jea...so hari2 SP jea lah... nk wat cm na.... mall gak en even suma kdai aku dh masok n hafai jln mengalahkn pekerja kt stu... hahha.

home sweet home! afta 3hours lbeyh journey smp penang tercinta!! pulau pinang da best place ever!(ayt bgga) k lah... pnjg dh ney... update later!

aku mEmbawa diRi......

aceyh tajok xbley belah.... hahha... i went to kl this morning actly.........not kl lah... bndar sunway jea. p jmpa nenek! rndu so much. last jmpa 10day b4 masok matric.........

so di kesemptn 2weeks mid smester break i nk enjoy sat but kna stdy gak! insyAllah...... ehhe.

smp umah nenek kol dkat kol 9pm... fuck train kt kl sentral delay 40min kot. tmbh aku sesat kt masjid jamek. silap arah. n x psal2 abg jg LRT mntak num aku. gilaa. punya buruk aku bley dia tya num. ngn aku xmake up lgsg... spec bkn maen tbal... sweater bsaq gabai. sja lah pkai burok2 psai i travel alone.. aveyh~

then smp2 trus ajak kazen i p pyrmd coz lapaq wendy's.............. trigt frosty(50% every friday) n sour cream potato baked. jz take away n blk melantak kt umah. tp bkn itu sja aku bli.. cheese burger,fries, nugget pown da. spa suroh penang xdak wendy's. then sggah giant bli conditioner. sumpaah xley hdup klaw xpkai cond.

smbg2 ngn nenek. tp nmpk nenek cm xlarat. cm passive sket. ya lah dh tua xkn nk maen lompat2 kot.

lps mkn wendy's.............. mndi lma2 coz dr pg sweat. lps mndi mkn nasi plak. nenek msk curry ikan da.. aym pown da. aku taw bkn bibik yg msk psal nenek aku msk sorg sdap. ehhe.

kmaih2 luggage... pncuci muka tumpah. shit2 tgal bpa drop jea. rm49 kalaw nk bli kt watson. ish kacaw lah. tp xpa aku xondai jg muka. xksah sgt thts jerawat suma da.

then on9 pkai ipod sat psai da wifi. pstu xpuaih scrin kecik. pkai comp plak. merapu pa jaddah smp lewat mlm. xpa nk p iron bj sat. esk nk p menggedik! yuuuuhhhhuuuu!!!

i hate this part. im taking back my love. heartless, i dOnt need a Man. single ladies. you r not alone!

hey..... hell yeah. im single? yeah fuck it. thts the word. i know i ask 4 it but everything went up and down since im in matric? is it bcoz of our long distance relationship? i swear i am so a loyal stupid bitch who dont even talk to any guys and even worse i dont know any guys name even my classmates.. i jz dnt gv a damn about man even rmai gak ajak date lah.. mntak num lah... askg lame question... n i dont care at all! i jz dnt care about them! but shit. he dont apriciate tht. farkov! u cant b like me so i let u go dude............. u so fucking shit! u dont deserve me. u hell.

nw im alone n gud gurl gone bad? naah. im not stupid okayh... i will focus on my matric n get 4flat! i will try my best! i dont need man to guide me... i lead my own way.. coz i hv my own path! i didnt dumb u but u make me do it loser. 1week i alive n breathe without u fuckass......... thnx 4evrtyhng! u moron!

owh yea. myb we used to be da most lovey dovey couple in da universe but shit nw i feel nothing to u.. i swear! our love is not exist anymore dude..... no more.


"don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being freeI don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thingI don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel completeSo let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around
I don't need a man, I don't I don't need a man
I'll get me through'
Cause I know I'm fine I feel brand new
I don't need a man,
I don't need a man
I'll make it through
'Cause I know I'm fine Without you!"


"Since you been gone I can breathe for the first time I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeahThanks to you, now I get, I get what I wantSince you been gone"


"So, So what I'm still a rock star I got my rock moves And I don't need you And guess what I'm havin more fun And now that were done I'm gonna show you tonight I'm alright I'm just fine And you're a tool soSo what I am a rock star I got my rock moves And I don't want you tonight"


"And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So look at me and listen to me because
I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, i get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer I don't want you,
there's nothing left to sayHush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush
I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
I never needed wordsI never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
From everything i wanted when you came along
But i'm never beaten from broken up defeats
I know next to you is not where i belong"