YA ALLAH jahat nya aku. kutok dia hbs2 pastu soh dia bc.
i admit tht byk bnda i tulis separoh2. i didnt mention all. coz i was so angry! i put all the blame on u! i ikot perasaan sgt mlm i wrote tht. my baddddddddddddd.
i know since we couple, i yg slalu break promise, bebai2 and being so annoyinggg!
lets start from the Begin. like 4years ago.
the day he saw me jog at my neighborhood. he stare at me n i notice tht. tp i buat2 eksyen. jln straight smbil selak rmbut mcm iklan shmpoo tuh n jeling him. well rmbut pnjg smp bontot kot tym tuh. i xknal dia pown. coz i jarang amek port hal2 kt tmn2 area my hse tuh.
n then 2nd tym he saw me with my mom n jiran i. we went to care4. tym tuh tgh mkn kt food court. i dgn skirt jean pendek jln terkedek-kedek, malu nmpk dia ngn gang dia. apa lah gang2 anak truna wat kt care4. i xpalah teman my mom bli groceries.
pastu kann. like 2days afta tht, he send message in my friendster's inbox *zaman friendster/myspace kot tym tuh. LOL
sounds like, "hey dh besar skg. dlu kecik ja. now sexy meh. btw im ur brother's fren. so friends yeah?"
i mcm eeeeuuuwwww pahal mamat nih x psai msg cm tuh. pastu i dgn arrogant nya rep, "excuse me dnt judge book by its cover. imma straight 8A's (pmr) student k. oh friend? wtva"
normally kn i mmg tak rep those boys msg. tak kira ah kt fs/ms/hp.. but when he yg msg i jd mcm nk jah rep! rs gedik! taw tak?
pastu we pown ber balas2 msg kt fs tuh ngn dia about 2-3weeks. he did ask my num like 4times. but i x bg. i ckp dlm fs dh laa. but he said it might b easier to talk klaw ada num *eleh ayatttt
n then 1day i dare him to come to my hse if really want my num, dtg amek kt rumah from my mom. coz i mmg susah nk bg num kt org. n then 1day, tgh siap2 nk jog... dok ikat tali kasot nih. dgq bunyi moto ZROOMMMZROOMMMM suddenly stop in front of my hse. i tiba2 freeze! wey terkejot lah mamat moto besaq mna lak nih. n then up tht person open up his full face helmet dgn his jacket kulit terangkat sket nmpk his back body. i was like... MELTINGGGG weyyy. serious shit handsome n macho nk mmpus dgn rmbut pnjg dia. bkn spike mcm skg ni. n when he smile at me, i rs mcm dunia ni tiba2 gelap. nk pengsan wey. pastu i dtg dpn dia n said "hi" setelah terpaku beberapa lama. n then dia ckp "where's ur mom?" i cm errr ada kt dlm. pastu i lari2 masok dlm n lompat2 kt my mom while saying, "mom mcm mna ni handsome sgt!!! DAMNNN!"
n then mom ckp pndai2 la. its ur number. ikot kau la. pastu apa lgi, lari2 lompat2 p kt dpn rumah (ala mcm creta the ugly truth) but once he about to see me i cover macho blk aaaa. n i said, nice bike. xtaw nk kata apa dah. bodoh kn. SO I GAVE HIM MY NUM. n then we chat a bit. sekejap jaa. dia suddenly tya i do u like japanese food or western? i ckp i like pizza. then he said dominos sdap. i taw sgt dh dia nk ajak kuaq. but i said, its ok. LONGGGG WAY TO GO!
baahahhahahaha once dia belah dh i pown p jog.. n tiba2 msg masok. *x pnh2 p jog bwk hp*
he text me, "u look more sweet face to face" omggggggggggggggggg mmg aku nk pengsan dh skit lgi! seronok wey! actly mmg i xska org puji2 nih. but since its from him, im so delighted. mmg lah bkn bf lgi. but I CRUSH ON HIM WHATTT.
n then bermula lah epilog cintaaa. hari2 text.. n he call me.. tym tuh mcm ada a few guys laa trying to hit me, but once i saw him i trus x lyn dpa. i only focus to him! LOL. i rs dia plg best kot. dh la rumah dkt ngn i. pastu matured n much older than me. he's in uitm merbok tym tuh. while im in dato onn. budak skolah lgi kot aku. hahahaah but i look very matured smp his oldest sister igt i ni dh keja. pergh haaaahaa. mula2 he bwk me jmpa his oldest sister tym 1st tym date. pastu his grandma. then only his family. 1st tym met them officially when his 3rd sis get married. i met the whole family! they r soooooooooooooooo nice n funny. while im so nervoussss!
but tym baru 2weeks couple, i ask 4 break. i rs mcm i x seswai ngn dia. im such a kid. n im not hot 4 him. im nothing. but he convince me tht he really love me. he admit mula2 he trying to find sum1 just to make his ex get jealous, but once he saw me, he cant avoid the love feeling. i know he byk bersabaq with me. i tym tuh mcm bdk2 sgt. x matang. skit2 merajok mntak break. pastu ignore him. like 2months with him, i dpt tawaran to boardingscience school in bukit mertajam. soksek. serious shit i mmg xmaw pii. boarding school is sooooooooo not my type. eventho bkn jaoh sgt but i dnt want! but i hv no choice when my grandma,uncles, aunts all convince me to go there 4 a better study. i know he berat hati nk bg i pii. he really hate to be far from me. ya la dok asrama hari2 x ley date. huhhh. my life sux there. myb sebab i masok tym form4. klaw dr form1 takpa laa. everybody look me as if im so WEIRDO. ya la i mna ikot peratoran sgt. nk kna pkai singlet la anak tdung la. kaen dlm laa. pastu tym perhimpunan slalu kna pggl sbb dtg lmbt n attire tak complete. PPFFTTTT~
tym mula2 tak bwk hp kt sna mmg hari2 ngs. call mom pkai public. ngs2 ckp penat iron baju n basoh baju. manja mengada btoi. i call nenek ckp nk quit. nenek mrh so kuatkn semgt. TIAP MGGU FLY WEY. hahahah org blk sebulan skali i plak tiap mggu. outing i blk rumah. ntah pa2. mmg x mcm plajar asrama penoh lgsg aaa. sket pown tak. lgpown tak biasa lah dgn their schedule. kt rumah bley stdy ikot suka. kt sni ada waktu2 prep which is not my tym! but i stil had my fun tym kt sna! not as bad as u guys tot oke. my batch suma best ja. n i involved kinda lotsa event mcm drama la. choir la. n blabla.
dh2 ckup life kt soksek. my realtionship goes well until 1day, her ex gurl, trying to seduce him back! wowwww. mcm drama kn. yeah it really happen to me. they hv been together like more or less 7years. dr form 2 coz they same high school. i was sooooo sad n worry when they gurl suddenly desperately wants him! hey u left him 4 another man n now u want him back? muka tak malu aihhhh. so since it happen during my school break, june. its like worse school break ever. i hv to face tht creepy gurl who trying to ruin our relationship. n after a few day, 3 of us sit n talk. she ask him who he choose. i said to him no matter who he choose, ill accept it. but im glad he choose me. im sooooooooooooooooooooo glad. i know i deserve his love coz tht mofo left him 4 another man lotsa tym. so she dnt deserve chances.
sepanjang i nk spm, he advise me a lot. sometimes when he said jgn dating sgt nnt i tak blajaq, i bebai. i said he boring with me. n when he dnt want to text me i said he so selfish takmaw teman i study. actly he dnt want to disturb my study time. we lemme do my work until finish. tp i xmaw mcm tuh! i nk u teman i study tiap masa! but well he knows me better, when i text him. msg dh 10kali, perkataan br 1. yeah. pastu elok2 msg i ska cr psai. coz i jaoh. i boring n ntg to do! i taw cr psai jahh! late rep sket i mrh. damn im so immature! u byk ber sabaq dgn prangai i yg ntah pa2 nih.
when im done with spm, i left u to kl. i went with my family. p tgk nenek saket. after tht i dok sana lma2. u mrh sgt kt i sbb i p kl bkn nya jga nenek sgt. i p enjoy la. kuaq ngn kwn2. hari2 p sunway pyramid. pastu i keja. bg alasan i nk cr duet sndri. sebulan kita tak cntct. i ignore u 4 real. but sometimes u did text me. mrh2. psai im so selfish leave u smata-mata nk dok kl.
when im boring at sunway, i blk bworth n pujok u then we oke. then boring kt bworth, blk sunway tggai u. ive been doing tht for 5-6 times. i know u mrh sgt kt i, but as u said, mrh2 pown nnt i pujuk u oke blk. i shudnt treat u tht way. i know im so bad. sometimes i did tht not bcoz of u, but bcoz of surrounding. i x tahan kna pressure dgn my mom when org2 kt taman tuh ska kata kt i. they didnt said it to my face. they blame my mom..
time kt maric pown i dok buat prangai, cuti sem jah p kl. even dh jnji x maw p tp i p jugak. u ckp 3-4days ckup la tp i p smggu dua. pastu i p enjoy merata tak habaq u. i buat mcm u ni xwujud.
tym u ada scandal ngn Affie Mustaffa pelacoq janda sundal amek ice tuh. dh aa blajaq x hbs. takat form3 pastu ada anak luaq nikah. ada hati kcaw laki aku. dok nk goda konon. i taw i salah tggai u mcm tuh ja. i p enjoy merata ngn kwn2 n u tot i enjoy dgn laki. but gurlss only! u misunderstood n u start lepak ngn gang perasan pussy cat dolls. i blame u 4 everything! i cried my lungs out! i hate u sooooo much 4 doing tht to me! mcm mna pown i tetap blame ihsan ismie tht man-whore! obviously u kwn ngn dia prangai u jd pelik. b4 this u x mcm tuh pown. mrh2 mcm mna pown u takkan lpak ngn betina. well ihsan tuh kn ska kwn ngn pompuan! dia nk pompuan utk fuck jah! ada gf dok cheat merata pastu dok ajaq u cheat. mmg lah klaw u xmaw pown x jd sama. but since dh ada org yg busuk perot dok hasott! supportive lah konon. pastu dia jugak tlg kantoi kn. dia yg soh memey boh gmbq suma. mmg dengki kianat btoi lah prangai. igt kn baek rupanya mcm haram jahhhh. thank god kwn2 u yg laen mcm rock, lan kutu,takim,anas suma (mostly gang anak hantu bguih) dpa byk kuatkn semgt i. dpa byk support i soh bg chance kt u. i hope u wont repeat anymore. n i pown promise takkan p kl lama2 tggai u n ignore u. i dh serikkk. i got my lesson already. perghhh~
p/s: if u dare to do anything behind my back, klaw kantoi mmg i cut off ur balls trus. try me =)
just so u know~
u know sometimes i get jealous with my friends coz bf dpa slalu cl dpa. gayot lama2. i know u dnt like tht way. u r not sweet talk. u dnt make promise when u think u cannot kotakan. but i plak jnis nk u say sweet things, jnji itu ini, x buat pown xpa. jnji best telinga i dgq. when i tnjuk u all the sweet words yg bf htq kt gf u will said, "copy paste dr google sapa pown boley. ckp bkn dr hati. lyric lagu la" then i said at least he try to make his gf happy. n u said happy but not sincere what for? yeah... i shud appreciate u 4 being urself. u x bg i jnji palsu. u x ckp bnda mengarot2 just to make me happy. u ckp bnda yg dtg dr hati u. eventho its too simple, i shud appreciate tht. bkn nya condemn u n beza2 kn u dgn laki yg sweet talk! myb dpa tuh ckp jah lebih !
u keep all ur promise. u klaw bab janji ngn i mmg u keep it. even u tak sihat ka pa. u stil akan tunaikn jnji u. u dnt talk trash. u rs klaw bnda tuh u tak ley buat u ckp siap2 xley. n u xjnji. tp i mrh. psai i ckp u never try. but actly u xmaw hmpa kn i.
yesss myb weekdays kita sux. slalu gado. x cntct sgt. i know i gving me space. so tht i cn study and lepak with my friends. i xksah u maen dota n lepak with all ur friends. smp bila u ckp u dok rumah mlm2, i pelik n soh u kuaq p maen dota ka lepak ka. cuma jgn lah smp lewat2. pndai2 lah tgk jam. myb kita tak msg n calling2 mcm couple laen. but our love is so strong. doesnt mean tak msg tak cnta kn? u sndri pnh ckp u ska face to face. u prefer reality. bila kita jmpa, u treat me mcm queen. kita happy sgt. laugh like crazy. kita ska buat lawak sama2. u smbung, i smbung. mmg kalaw jmpa ssh nk diam. ada jah bnda nk usik. mmg we both crazy. igt tak tym xdak duet nk mkn tym kita p bt fghi.... mula2 dok syiok mkn kfc laaa. beli itu ini la. skali lapaq xdak duet, kita korek syiling merata, bukak purse i selok dlm2. purse u, kt kreta. pastu ada 3hengget sekupang. kita bli nasi lemak ngn kueh. pastu ayaq milo pnas. ckup2 kot. kita mkn gelak2. still happy walaupun dia kosong!
n one of our best moment. karoke sgguh2! lagu melayu english suma kita bntaii! hahaha tp tym record video ni i tak nyanyi psai dok pulon wat comeyy. tym tak record, nyanyi mcm haram. check this out.
kita sggop redah hujan sama2. u slalu ckp u thnkful dpt gf x ksah naek moto. u kta klaw pompuan laen mmg xnk dh kot. yess i xksah. u bwk mto besaq ka. moto kapcai ka. scooter ka. i dnt mind all tht. i want u not ur stuffs. i prefer kita kuaq naek moto coz i cn hug u! *gataii* n lgpown senang klaw jam kia leh selit sna sni. antara best moment kita, igt dak kita p merbok, sungai petani bcoz u tringin nk mkn kt nasi ayam pak mud coz u ckp kt uitm dlu u slalu p mkn kt stu. u kata sdap n murah. n pakmud tuh baek ngn u. n then kita pown p lah naek moto rgv kot. moto kecik u. skali pi2 xdak. dia tutup kot. pastu melilau merata cr jugak igt dia ubah tmpt. then ada org ckp dia x bukak hr nih. so kita pown blk lah bworth. otw nk blk tuh, hujan lebat! smp kita ketaq ataih mto! LOL pastu kita berhenti kt Giant, SP. tggu redaa sat. n then hujan stil tak reda n u said mst lgi lebat, so kita pkai bju sejuk. ada satu tapi kita pkai dua! sumpah lawak gilaaaaa! i dok gelak ataih mto smbil pikiaq kreta2 kt blkg mst kta kita gila! basah kuyuk kita skali ngn baju2 hujan. 1 of the best moment!
u mmg x tnjuk u care dari segi ckp. but u show. u show n guide me not with words. with attitude. when i nk go out with my friends, u mst ikot n jd body guard aka photographer... jln ja kt blkg ikot mna kami pii. sometimes tuh u sggp htq n amek kami dr nk biaq i kuaq ngn dpa jah. mmg lah mcm annoying kn! tp u did tht bcoz u worry bout me. u xmaw jd bnda2 pelik2 kt i. u always said if anythng happen to me, u will blame urself.
when i gadoh2 ngn sapa2, u mst nsht i itu ini. n i said u ni boring! x supportive! baek i mengadu kt org laen yg boley bg idea. but actly u r right. u xmaw i gadoh n get into trouble. but whatever happen to me, u stil be by my side n support me. u pkiaq pnjg. i jnis pkiaq pendek. i cuma taw nk menang jah bila i gadoh ngn sapa2. tp u jnis suka suroh i beralah. u taw tak i hate being loser! tp u ttap pndirian u. but at last. u stil btol. 4 tht i thnk u a lot.. thnx 4 guiding me and teach me how to settle problem..
u mmg tak ska i ada kena mengena with any guys. esp u plg tak ska i dok rep comment those unknown. u taw i tak flirt! i rep comment elok2 tp u stil mrh! u hlg i kwn ngn laki. yes i dnt mind. i mmg xska kwn ngn laki. i prefer gurlsfren. but sometimes i xley nk elak. i hv to face them. but u mrh! alasan u xska tgk.. i taw u jealous. tp bila tya u slalu denied. ugh! even i rep satu word pown u mwngamok sakan! finnneeeee! i x buat dh, i xkn rep comment laki yg i btoi2 x knal even they asking mw sumthng.
u sgt EGO!!!!!!! i slalu cri psal ngn u. i yg start most of the argument. but once dh perang besaq, i mst x maw kesalahan i. i sggp pulon cr salah u dr nk mntak maaf! i pown ego tp ego i tak setinggi u. i slalu kta u ni x sgguh2 maw kt i, i yg desperate maw kt u... i ckp mcm tuh psai nk u admit u really need me! i slalu jd punca bergadoh psai i nk ur attention! padahai i dnt hv to do tht. elok jah u bg attention. ya laaa bila jaoh kn. i slalu pikiaq bkn2 n bebai tak tentu hala. im so crazy!
mcm contoh nya baru2 ni, i gatai2 p tulis bnda ni kt fb psai nk bg u jealous, "i get butterflies when i saw u. and i feel tht i wanna know u better. ugh i shud ignore this feeling!"
tgkk. i sja p cr psai tulis mcm tuh dgn alasan i nk u rs risaw. damn im so stupid! u bkn jd rsaw tp u rs mcm kna maen2. mcm i ni dh minat kt org laen. u call i tya sapa laki tuh. u mrh2. i ckp tak dak. ha laaa mmg xdak psai i sja tulis! niat i nk bg u rs insecure (kinda berjaya psai u mrh gila)
lps tuh gadoh2, i ckp dh aaa nk break. lgi lah u rs fishy. u rs mmg btoi apa i tulis! n then u ignore me for 2days. i geram, i tukaq status n kutok u kt my entry "riding solo" tuh. i shudnt kata kt u mcm tuh. i nih jahatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt n kejammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!
pastu u pown nk tnjuk ego gak. u kata u nk ikot apa i buat. so u pown tukaq status jugak! i lgi rs tercabaq! i nk menang i dnt care! pastu i cr psai ngn u kt page ee. pastu u msg i. pergh i rs mcm menang besaq gila psai after 2days, u yg msg i! hahha prangai i mmg burok. xska nk mengalah! hhmmmmm taktaw lah bila nk brubah prangai i nih.
i slalu tya u tak tringin ka aweks yg hot2. ayu2. n x ksaq mcm i. u kta u xnk. u kta tak best lah awek ayu2 nih. bkn rider. u accept jah cr i nih. even mulot i ni bkn maen laser. kuat mencarot. ska maki2. tp u trima ja i se adanya. u xpnh mntak i brubah. the way u respect people esp org2 tua sgt bagus. i yg pompuan pown xley jd mcm u. u very humble n suka tlg orang! sumtimes u hv to sacrifice our date bcoz u nk tlg org. but i dnt mind. i let it be. psai i pown ska tlg org *nk jugakk
pastu bila kita break, even i yg mntak, i akn salah kn u even its obviously its my fault! i act like im so prefect n u jah jahat n salah! i kutok u kt kwn2 i. i buat mcm i nih mgsa lah konon. serious shit i terokk u. i shud understand u more. u hv ur owns ways in handling relationship. u tak sama mcm laki laen.
tp smlm, u wish me luck 4 my biology test n u said u always need me. i hp i hbs battery mlm td. u risaw sgt kt i smp i on hp ada 45misscalled. and 17 msgs dis morning. rs i menang lgi! psai i suka sgt when u merayu2 kt i. well i takmaw kalah! knapa prangai i burok u?? knapa i kejamm? knapa i rs diri i bagus n btol tiap masa? i mntak maaf sgt2 4 being such a jerk. i shud appreciate u more. i know i love u so much. but im too annoying for u. i ni tak lyak pown utk u! i manusia kejam! u dh buat mcm2 kt i tp i slalu condemn u for that, its very clear that u deserve some1 better................................................
this is our 4years memories which i will never forget
