i hate this part. im taking back my love. heartless, i dOnt need a Man. single ladies. you r not alone!

hey..... hell yeah. im single? yeah fuck it. thts the word. i know i ask 4 it but everything went up and down since im in matric? is it bcoz of our long distance relationship? i swear i am so a loyal stupid bitch who dont even talk to any guys and even worse i dont know any guys name even my classmates.. i jz dnt gv a damn about man even rmai gak ajak date lah.. mntak num lah... askg lame question... n i dont care at all! i jz dnt care about them! but shit. he dont apriciate tht. farkov! u cant b like me so i let u go dude............. u so fucking shit! u dont deserve me. u hell.

nw im alone n gud gurl gone bad? naah. im not stupid okayh... i will focus on my matric n get 4flat! i will try my best! i dont need man to guide me... i lead my own way.. coz i hv my own path! i didnt dumb u but u make me do it loser. 1week i alive n breathe without u fuckass......... thnx 4evrtyhng! u moron!

owh yea. myb we used to be da most lovey dovey couple in da universe but shit nw i feel nothing to u.. i swear! our love is not exist anymore dude..... no more.


"don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being freeI don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thingI don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel completeSo let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around
I don't need a man, I don't I don't need a man
I'll get me through'
Cause I know I'm fine I feel brand new
I don't need a man,
I don't need a man
I'll make it through
'Cause I know I'm fine Without you!"


"Since you been gone I can breathe for the first time I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeahThanks to you, now I get, I get what I wantSince you been gone"


"So, So what I'm still a rock star I got my rock moves And I don't need you And guess what I'm havin more fun And now that were done I'm gonna show you tonight I'm alright I'm just fine And you're a tool soSo what I am a rock star I got my rock moves And I don't want you tonight"


"And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So look at me and listen to me because
I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, i get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer I don't want you,
there's nothing left to sayHush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush
I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
I never needed wordsI never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
From everything i wanted when you came along
But i'm never beaten from broken up defeats
I know next to you is not where i belong"

terMinator waNnabe?

hahhha. aclty bkn apa.... jz nk bgtaw i p go out last nite........... yea i blk sat from chgloon.... cis jaoh perjalanan taw ark... dkat 3jam nek bus tp dmi pulang ke pangkuan keluarga, hutan ribut sgp ku redah... aceyh~ bajet jea nie.... ahha....

even 2days blk at least rndu terubat coz dh dkat sbulan x blk oke... so tht nite i cm boring sgt doing my biology report..... menghadap lukisan2 animal cellsss whtsoever.... so i ask my mom.shah n ajoy (daddy,baby n len2 da kt kl-rindu dpa lah!) go out to sunway pyrmid... oopss sunway carnival lah... penang oke! wit my faiz, we went to sunway crnival..... i trigin gilaa nk tgk terminator salvation... xpnh miss pown tht movie from the beginning.... esp kalaw arnold ada, aku sgp ulang 24kali oke.. he is sooooo hot! tp xpalah... since he jd mayer he dh xdak masa nk blakon kot even asyik dok kta i'll be back. ehhe.

aku pkai simple2 n lite make up jea.... tpat 830pm, afta maghrib prayer. ktaorg chow dr rumah....so smp2 ja kt tht mall, i pown sggah kt giant ngn mom p bli brg... my sabon bju dh hbs.... i pkai dobi machine oke.... jgn hrp i rjn sgt nk berdobi tgn di sna.... n mom bli brg dapur..... tgk nie kt giant pown aku nk amek gmbq... apa lah!

lpas bli brg, i p bli ticket dlu..... sgala kdai VINCCI NOSE BODYSHOP aku tepis dr pndgn... xmw tgk..... duet tarak n lgpown mom mst bsing... RM9 each ticket...cisss.... igt dh murah tp dok mahai lg... br kuaq kot... or GSC mmg mahai? apa2 ja lah.... so total RM45.... this is not addmath or account oke... tp kalaw p bt feringghi aku ble dpt 12keping DVD lah... di sebabkn i yg gedik2 nk tgk, so i jz dnt care.... sbaq sat transformer x kluaq lg... im coming again! talk about terminator, sumpah best gla! afta fast furious, terminator salvation is da best! im so focusing at tht movie without any chat.....sorry dear kalaw b wat xtaw kt u but u hv to u'stand! hahha. gedik~

owh yea.... since wayang tuh start at 1125pm, we got about 2hours to lpak2 dlu.... so we p mkn thai's food kt upper level....... sumpah i loved siamese's food.... myb psal ada drh siam kot.... ya lah my grandma at mother side. is siamese woman.... so i ate laksa, pulut magga, longan juice n tomyam.... bkn la mkn sorg2... we share2 lah... sharing is caring..... tetiba ja aku nie. hahha. so afta mkn, me n my mom lpak2 jap psal xlarat nk bgn.... so the boys p survey apa ntah kt sony n apple... owh yea syg nk bli laptop... cli color hot pink n jgn hrp dia akn pkai..... tshrit pink pown xpkai apa tah lg lappy kn... nk wat cm na he very macho ma....

psal terminator i dh crita, so lpas wyg pown dh kol 130pm.. kuaq ngn family dpt la merasa smp koi 1pg.... kalaw dak mmg kna maki lma dh.... hahha.... adat org melayu ank dara kna blk b4 10mlm kn... ikot jea lah..... yea ka? myb tuh arhn mak aku sorg jea kot..... hurmmm.... blk2 tuh i take off my lens n gedebom! tdoq trus.... dgn x remove makeup...... esk tuh sah2 jeawat aku bertmbh segunung... ahhhaa.... hey chgloon im coming tomoro! c u! duhhhhh~

So intO blaCk n white!

yes! i really love everthing in black n white...... including taik cicak en? its an art oke... hahha! i love buying htam puteh punya brg..... bju ka.... kasot ka... handbeg ka.... i jz dnt care! my taste mmg htam puteh dr dlu lg..........im not gothic followers ka pa...... no im not.... i jz lyke the color n stuff of black n white.... kulit xnk htam ka? hmmm.. xpa lah i satisfy wit my skin tone yg skrg nie... kulit melayu... hahhaha..... black is really elegance!

kalaw lah u all prasan, i slalu kuaq dressing black n white.... dlu smp skg tp skg dh pkai mcm2 color... kalaw dlu, mmg no pink no green no blue lah.... black n white jea maemanjang! n i pnh henna my nails black tym cuti skolah...n dye my hair real black(noir) afta i rebond my hair tym form3 dlu....pdhal rmbt aku mmg color htam tp nk laggiiii htam!

n tym i form3, my dad bg duet bli bju raya.... i blk dgn baju htam.. skirt htam....handbeg htam.... suma lah htm... then mak i tya "hg nie nk smbot rya ka nk berkabong?" hahha... pedih gla ayat... i jz said nk rya lah... htam style apa.... sng jga xyah cuci salu... alasan aku mmg xbley bela kot..... hahha... ngok gla kn... tp nk wat cm na i loveeeee black n white...even my 1st date ngn syg pown i pkai black n white...... n fyi; i never bought my spec other color. aku ckp spec bkn shades oke. spec black always....tp kakaw cntct lens aku prefer color2 lah... ehehhhe....n i dnt care stuff 2hennget ka jnji color htam puteh psti i bli.............. earing pown byk color htam puteh lah!

tp lpas i ngn faiz, he chgne my color! bj aku suma dh color2 lah..... dh x kusam almari bju i.... hehhe... whtever it is, im stil into black n white!! forever n ever! yeah~

i mish him badly okayh.....

1st of all thnx syg mai kt b yest (saturday-6th june!).. b taw jaoh tp syg mai gak... dgn new superbike syg yg amat cntk n i lyke........cey...... syg b more ka s'bike tuh? hehhe... but i mish my old sygness also.. the old superbike tht u used to TACKLE ME TUH? hahaahahha....... =p

he arrived at 12pm... bertolak koi 11am....... 1hour ja u travel? i wonder how u speed la sygg.... jgn smp hospital dlu sdh na.... hehhe..we went to CMART... its a chagloon mart i guesss..... hahahahah. sumpah xdak pa2 but i dont expect its like a QB mall or wert.. ok lah... atleast ada watson lah gak kn kt cmart tuh? we had lunch at kopitiam... i introduce him to my very new friends... diba n leha.... diorg outg stu gak........... so kami chill skali lah... dua org bdk kuat latah ni mmg x hbs glak kalaw lpak ngn diorg.... hahahahaha. sumpah lawak gla!

then me n him went to kompleks duty-free bukit kayu htam... i was soooo excited ok.... but tgk2 ciggrattes n alcoholic drinks ja yg duty free...... i was expected perfummes n watches are duty free but same price like at the mall n no discount... whtever okayh! baek xyah wat duty free... x mendatangkn apa2 kebaikan utk us pown.... we dont smokes n drinks.... so mmg xbest lah dtg sni... at last i jz bought chocs n sweets(also x duty free lah)... owh he yg bli kt me... hehhe thnx dear....

tpi duty free punya complex tuh dh smpdn kwsan siam.. dkat jea... kalaw da passport mmg dh lma lpas ke sna dh... mmg my matric place ni sempdn siamm... jz 10km okeh.... thts y la i xkn kuaq sorg2 or in minor group.... kna culik mmg dpa hntaq siam br taw... eeiiii takot aku!

berbalik pda tajok asal entry nie.... i cuma nk express my feelings tht i really mish u dear.... even br jmp smlm kn.... thnk u so much coz dtg kt me taw..... i taw jaoh n costing but u still come tepat pda masanya.....thnx la jengok b kt cerok chgloon ney.... jhat dpa tarok b kt sni tp xpa.. this is da rockest matric college n 1st ranking ok! hahahaha... dear...... im glad tht we stil together coz my friends rmai dh break ngn bf dpa.... like i told u who n who.... i hope we will last forever oke.. syg keja leklok2 b blajaq elok2.... taw2? b jnji xkn cr psal dh n i wont make things complicated dh kayh.....ill be more understanding.....

i dok belek2 our pic n i want to share wit u guys........ yest x smpat nk amek gmbaq... huhuhuh tp xpa byk gmbq dlm hp nie.... so lets see!

am i changing rite nw?

hahha. jgn terkejot yea... korang mst fikir i br masok matric 4 2months mst kna brain wash ngn mna2 ustaz ustzah.... or dh dpt hdayah pkai tdung kn? actly bkn lah... ni just pkai slendang tym agama class... actly ustazah i x suroh pown... tp i jz nk hormat class agama but tht doesnt mean i didnt respect other class..... cuma kn tym agama da bc ayat2 Quran suma.... xkn nk free hair jugak kot... coz nk dressing pown kna ikot tmpt... kalaw p kuliah xkn nk pkai hot pant? p beach pkai bju kurung? hahhahah.. i know my face tym freehair ka pkai tdung ka.. both stil ugly... coz im not the pretty type.... from hate to toe sgt unperfect.... but i stil grateful ada jugak org2 yg syg kt me kot... n aku x cacat... amin~



nie plak gmbaq tym we all(me n my new friends) tym pgi library.... we r so close until org igt kami bff dr kecik... hahha... tu best dpt org yg sekepala kn.... me, adiba n zaleha take diff courses..... diba bdak account... zaleha sains fizikal.. me sanis hayat.... tp kami boleyh dok study skali n having fun togeher..... besides them, my classmates suma best2... they r cool n understandg... even i sorg freehair dlm tutorial class....... dlm class tuh ada 25ppl jea.... laki bpa kerat jea... so i knw my bf lega sket lah bla laki skit.... as if i nk flirt wit them.... suma nmpk cm adek2 i jea.... owh yea the best part is 1 day tym i dok cr lecturer kt cubicle, got ths gurl myb dia xpnh nmpk i, bg slam kt i ckp "assalamualaikum puan..." i mcm senyum jea... hahhahaha.. igt i lecturer ka? adoi.... even org kta i dressing mengalahkn lecturer but hey.. im not lecturer.... even i look so matured! i student oke..... hahaha... thts really funny! i crita kt my friends diorg glak2 pecah perot..... kurang asam the all.. ahhahah...

okayh yg ni plak tym amali biology.... dpt ckgu muda oke.... x kawen lg... a pretty lady weeeeet2..... hehhe... strict but nice one.... tgk tuh dlm lab pown aku camhoring.... mmg dasar anis.... hehhe... tym ni tgh tgk plant cell; sclerenchyma n parenchyma.... cell tu color pink purple lah kt dlm microscope 40x....... cantek gla tp kalaw tgk wit naked eye mmg xnmpak apa lah kn....

yg ni plak tym titration (neutralisation) during chemitry amali..... wat titration..... dlm rule laboratory kimia, ada tulis xley pkai cntct lens tym handle experiment.... so to be safe i pkai jea la spec old school i neyh... wah saket tgn lah wat experiment nie.... apparatus pnjg2 then kna jengket (dh i pendek!)...

okayh.... tym ni mmg best glaa n enjoy nk mampos....... i teman diba n leha p karaoke contest 4 wakil matric at banquette... they really had superb voice.... yg len cm ask me x masok ka? i was like woh! kang tsunami satu martic ney... hehhe... canot lah.. i ska nyanyi dlm toilet jea... not 4 public.... huduh sgt my voice.... hahhahah... pengakuan brani mati ney....

about 30ppl masok..... diorg yg ke 6 7..... so b4 n afta tht mmg mcm2 jnis suara ada... lawak gla lah.... mcm2 style! i gelak2 jea lahhhh....... layannnn~

ths 1 plak tym ktorang maen basketball n cycling..... sukaa hati mak pak kami jea maen suma tuh...x pduli org lgsg okayh..... n we also do aerobics ala2 clubing.. agak2 mcm mna erk? ntah lah... i never went to club but i guess i knw how they dance.... hahha..... sometimes i p gym bla member2 mntak tlg ajar them how to work out... cisssssssss... nyesal i bgtaw them my bf is gym trainer....

everday we had lunch together at cafe at 1pm n dinner at 830pm... mst wajib jmpa 4 gossipssss all tht.... really enjoy my life here even i do mish every1 in penang eps my family... him n freinds! xpa i mai sni nk blajaq so kna sabaq lah..... 1year jea kn.... xlma pown... thts y i xmaw wat diploma..............lma kot 3thn! apa2 wish me all the best kayh.... nk dpt 4flat! insyaAllah~